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baby blues

Mar 26, 2014 by

Last year, I wrote about our miscarriage, which was followed by an unexpected pregnancy. In November, we welcomed a beautiful baby girl, Susanna Grace. Right on the heels of her birth, we packed up our home, our four children, and the gazillion items we supposedly need to survive, and moved to a new city and a new church for my husband to pastor.  Everything about...

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Double Chocolate Pie
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Yesterday, some of my family came to visit. I love to host, but family is my favorite kind of hosting. Because when Benjamin took occupation of our guest bath for a good part of the afternoon, and they had to use our second bathroom off our bedroom, the bottom priority for cleaning because it is shut off?  Well, I didn’t mind quite so much...

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The Creative Spirit
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Once, I was scrapbooking with a friend when she admired a page I had created and then said, “You are SO creative. . . . It’s kind of irritating, actually.” She meant it.  And I get what she means and I take no offence. I’ve felt that irritation. Seeing other people release their gifts into the world can be irritating if you haven’t found and embraced...

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The Soft Spot
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The Soft Spot

Mar 21, 2014 by

I sit in the soft spring sunlight and hold Susanna in my lap. I brush my lips against the top of her head and I can feel the tender throb of a pulse near the center–her soft spot.  Isaac and Ben tussle over a stick nearby. It terrifies me. The bones in her skull will grow and shift and eventually close in, but for...

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12 Days of Spring and the Spirit
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    Fling yourself straight into life, without deliberation; don’t be afraid–the flood will bring you to the bank and set you safe on your feet again. I know that you don’t believe it, but life, in fact, will bring you through. You will live it down in time. What you need now is fresh air, fresh air, fresh air! -Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment...

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Dream Small
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Dream Small

Mar 12, 2014 by

I had a terribly uncomfortable dream last night. I really don’t put a lot of mystical meaning or value on dreams; I tend to think of them as the chaotic spasms of the unconscious mind, but I do grudgingly acknowledge the presence of certain broad themes or symbols. In the dream, I was participating in a theater production of Dracula. In real life, I did participate...

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The Desires of Your Heart
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I like to watch for themes the Lord is working into my life, like knitting patterns. Lately, it’s desire. The world has captured this word, desire, hijacked it and sexualized it until it is gaudy and heavy, latent with provocation. Not that kind of desire.  (that kind is good, too, but not the subject here) Desire that shapes the natural direction of my heart,...

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Everyday Art
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Everyday Art

Mar 2, 2014 by

Snow day Sunday. Family worship was kind of a flop this morning, but I give us credit for trying. It feels good to try to accomplish something that matters to us, even when it goes awry. Isaac hurt his foot right before we started and spent the whole Bible story whining for another Ninja Turtle band-aid and Ben made us sing “Make New Friends”...

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